I will begin .........

I grew up in a household where both of my parents were in the church.Both of them baptized and filled with the HOLY GHOST. I was baptized when I was in the sixth grade and as time went on I grew more and more out of the church.

When I went to high school my life changed dramatically. I began to want to fit in more and more. I began leaving out of the house and putting on pants to go to school. I picked up smoking cigarettes and eventually was introduced to alcohol.

At first my use of alcohol was a weekend thing than gradually turned into a few days during the week maybe after school. By the time I entered the tenth grade , I was cutting school to go get beer alot during the week. So much that I found myself repeating the tenth and eleventh grade over. Yes, that means I failed twice. I really did not care at the time. I was in danger of failing for the third time but the principal made a recommendation for me to attend the night school program they had in place.

The program was designed for children who had behavior problems. It was five days a week except it started at 3pm to 7pm. This was perfect for me because it allowed me to go drink until late at night and then sleep in until I had to go to school. I eventually graduated, but my drinking habits became even worse. I attempted community college but that failed as it interfered with my drinking schedule. As years went by I found myself unable to hold onto to even a job because of my drinking lifestyle.

A day in my life consisted of me getting up , going to the beer store as early as possible and drinking basially all day long. I would pass out around 4 or 5 and then later get back up and start drinking again. When I held a job, as soon as I left from work, I would head off to happy hour and from there go to my local bar to hang out until 9 or 10. I repeated this behavior for years.

One day as I was hanging out with one of my drinking buddies he introduced me to a white substance. At first, I did not want to do it as I heard all of the storiesof people being addicted, but I convinced myself because after all if he was able to do it then there was probably no harm in it. I tried it and really did not get a high off of it the first time, the third time is when I felt the impact of it. This drinking buddy of mine also suggested that I should sell it to get more money. He introduced me to a few people with whom I could buy the product from. He taught me how to bag up the cocaine and taught me what amounts I should be selling the different bags. I eventually just sat at the bar that I frequented and eventually spotted out those who were into cocaine. I would often just sit in the bar all day long just drinking doing cocaine and selling it. The exchange of drug money into my hands went right into the hands of the bartender quite often.

My relationships with men really did not last as I lacked commitment to any of them and would rather have enjoyed my lifestyle than to have settled down even for a couple of days. My life continued in a down hill spiral that I could not even see.

Things began to change for me as I was arguing with one my friends over drug money. He attempted to get people to jump me and I knew that he would not hesistate to pull a gun on me. I slowed down for awhile with frequenting the bar I normally went to and found another place to hang out at for awhile.Things eventually calmed down between the two of us.

One night I was driving a car that was not inspected and was pulled over by the police, I had enough cocaine on me to have been put away for years. I remember praying to GOD and asking him to help me out of the situation. I told him that if he helped me I would serve him. I knew that my parents would be humiliated and I did not want to do that to them. I was taken to jail that night because I was drinking and driving, but the cops never searched me. Generally, when a woman is arrested the police have a female officer come to the scene to search you. They finger printed me and let me call a ride home.

My life began to change from this point on. I began to feel really heavy and depressed. I remember driving my car drinking and thinking that I should crash my car into a tree or even drive off the road. I would even feel like crying when I was out with friends and I did not understand why. I felt this way for months. One day I was at a party and just sitting there drinking and started crying. I called my mother and told her how I had been feeling and I did not understand why I kept crying. I remember her exact words to this day. She said that believed that the LORD was dealing with me. I pondered this for awhile.

A couple of weeks later, I was over a relatives house drinking and I stepped outside to have a cigarette. I happened to look up in the sky and all of a sudden, I realized that GOD could see everything that I was doing. I knew that the state that I was in was the lowest point. I knew that even if I attended alcohol counseling or drug counseling, I would not be able to stop unless I turned to GOD. The Lord allowed my eyes to be opened at that very moment. I was all of a sudden just ashamed and sorrowful.

I rembering flicking my cigarette from the balcony and sayint to myself. This is it. I'm not doing this no more. I left my relatives house. I remember the next day was a Sunday. I went to church and went up to the altar and told the Elder that I wanted to come back to the LORD. I tarried for the Holy Ghost for two months. I'll never forget the day I received it. I was sitting in my room listening to a Bishop Bonner tape. I began to call on the name of JESUS. I just kept saying it and saying it. My eyes were shut and I just kept calling on him and calling on him, when it seemed as though the room was really really bright. I did not open my eyes , but that brightness, it felt so good and my calling on the name of JESUS turned into another language. I did not understand that language but in my mind I was saying JESUS, JESUS but something else was coming out. The feeling I felt was like none I ever experienced. A whole bunch of joy and brightness. I could feel him on the inside just moving in me. I'll never forget it..No never.  I could not even sleep all night long. I just laid there telling him how much I loved him, how great he was.  Thank you LORD, Thank you LORD. That same spirit that came upon me on November 25, 2001 has never left me, but has kept me each and every day. No every day has not been easy but GOD has kept me. This way is greater and better than anything that I have ever known. I didn't need drug counseling, I didn't need alcohol counseling because when GOD filled me he cleansed me up and turned me around. He removed that drug dealer and user. He removed that alcoholic and that fornicator....So I know now that GOD can do anything. He is not respect of persons. He can do the same for anyone else. I thank you LORD, I thank you, I thank you.  As the song says This is my Story, This is my Song, Praising my Savior all the day long. Blessed be the name of the most high God. Now , today and forever more

Peace Be

Praise the Lord everyone!

I just want to say that God has truly been good to me. I have been in COOLJC all of my life and I was taught about the goodness of the Lord and what all God can do for me. I recieved the Holy Ghost June 11, 2001 at Redemption Delieverance COOLJC. It was our prayer service, early that day I was just thinking about what I was doing and how it was going to get me in life and I realized that what I was doing was not going to take me no where. Right then and there I decided to make a change. I didn't do drugs or have sex with everyone, but I was just like every young person trying to fit in with the crowd, but I knew that I was not going to heaven on trying to be like the crowd. So when service came along I knew that it was my time to change. So I became to pray and seek the Lord for the holy ghost and the Lord truly blessed. I didn't give up when the saints where finishing up the prayes, I still was seeking and praying for the holy ghost. At 9:45 pm God poured His spirit out on me. I was filled with the HOLY GHOST!!!!! PRAISE THE LORD!!! I am 18 years and been saved for 5 years June 11, 2006. I just thank God for all my blessing and most of all the Holy Ghost. If He did it for me I know He would do it for everyone that  believes in Him and know that He will do it.

Till we meet be blessed and Continue to praise the Lord!!!